Last year I told Shawn, our kids and friends that I was writing a book.
I have written quite a bit of it and have lots of material that I’ve collected over the years. It would be a great book. Fun. Inspiring. Entertaining.
I even joined a special writers program to help me get all my ducks lined up. They were organized, supportive and extremely informative.
I had a LOT to learn…and did.
I realized, through the program, that I’m not ambitious anymore. I mean, I have ambitions but I’m not the workhorse I was in my 20’s and 30’s.
Do you know how much work, time, money, effort, marketing, etc. go into a single book? Writing it is actually the easy part and it ain’t easy!
It’s exhausting just thinking about it.
I paid a lot of money to learn all of this and instead of being upset about it, I’m happy. I love how much I’ve learned. I love that I now know all that is required to be a successful author.
I didn’t just talk or even just daydream about writing a book. I put my plan into action but soon found out that THIS was not the path I truly wanted to take at this point in my life.
I’m happy to have figured out that I would rather just blog and put my daily stories on Facebook than write a book.
Also, and this is a big one, I can’t write about Sam.
He’s a major part of my life (obviously) and our travels so not being able to share his experiences or photos in our adventures wouldn’t really be authentic. This bothered me a LOT.
I also don’t like editing myself. I swear and say things that may or may not ruffle people’s feathers. When you are trying to build a brand, share stories and be yourself you also need to worry about cancel culture if you say one controvercial thing then your career could be over before it starts.
I don’t want to give a shit about about whether or not something I think or feel, and then share, will hurt my book sales or cost me advertising dollars.
I’m contacted all the time to review products for free so I can post about them. I hate this. I’ve done it and feel like I can’t really be authentic.
I’d rather pay full price for a product or trip and give my honest opinion, good or bad, instead of pulling punches so I can continue getting freebies…which aren’t even free as you have to pay taxes on them.
So… all of this is to share that I have changed lanes. I miss blogging. I miss just saying whatever the hell I think whenever I think it.
I have decided to abstain from doing so on Facebook but will continue to do so here. Facebook is just for fluff and fun and pictures and videos I can look back on and…to keep up with people I care about.
I don’t care about getting famous, paid or published. I love my life and the people in it and make that I also speak for a certain group who need and want to hear the things I like to share.
I love sharing our travels, Sebastian growing up, the stupid shit they happens to us and around us that makes us laugh. I also like sharing my thoughts – whatever makes me feel compelled to share.
Blogging publicly is my way of jourrnaling and releasing. I am not a diary person but I love blogging. It’s my personal therapy and my happy place.